Some days, despite my best intentions, I fall flat on my face. Yesterday was that day. I didn't cause an actual crisis or anything, but I did create a misunderstanding that further stressed and complicated a situation that was already stressful and complicated. Go me.
I had no evil intentions, I really just should have thought a little longer before I spoke. Still, lack of intention does not mean one didn't create a problem.
While I was beating myself up, I stopped to think about how I would respond if it was another person who had been in my shoes. I admit that my knee jerk reaction would probably not have been great; but ultimately, I would have shrugged and realized that the person didn't mean any harm and gotten on with my life. Probably the people in my situation did the same.
So, why is it so hard to forgive oneself?
I guess it's because we all want to be perceived in a good light and when we do something we feel messes that up, its hard to take.
Well. I am not perfect. So, if you were wondering about that, wonder no more....;)
I'm glad today is a new day, a clean slate. Next time I mess up, I will try to be a little more gracious to myself and I will try to forgive others more quickly too. We are all trying and that's really all we can do.