Blessing in Disguise

So, we have been in Virginia for about 2 1/2 months now.  The plan was for me to find a job and start working part time shortly after the kids started school.  I have put out some applications and had a few possibilities, but for whatever reason, nothing has landed yet.

I went from being frustrated about it to taking a step back and realizing that perhaps, I should just enjoy this little respite that I'm getting.  Perhaps God knew this would be the perfect time to insert a little break for me and loved me enough to do it in spite of my well-laid plans.  Certainly I will keep looking and I'm sure I will find a job.  But, for now, this time I have alone to myself each day is priceless.

*Disclaimer to any of my kids who may read this:  I love you.  Being a Mom is one of the best things in my life.  I can't imagine not having you, and I wouldn't change anything about my life.  :)

But, that doesn't mean I don't get tired and I don't think I realized just how tired I was until I got this little reprieve.

This may shock some of you, but I am an absolute introvert.  I love people and enjoy being around them, but socializing is draining to me, not energizing like it is to some.  My soul and mind are regenerated and restored when I have time to spend by myself and that just hasn't happened that often in the last 17 years.  Actually, the last time I remember it happening for any length of time was during my hospitalization before Carter was born.  When I relate that story to people I often hear things like, "I don't know how you managed to stay in the hospital for all that time - I would have gone stark, raving mad."  I smile and say something heroic like "Oh, well, you do what you have to for your kids, right?"  But, really, it wasn't that bad.  Who am I kidding?  Most of the time, it was great!  I read 17 novels and had a laptop all to myself all day long.  Introvert paradise.

So, anyway.

I am going to enjoy this time because I know it will come to an end.  I will love whatever comes after it, but for now I'm gonna party like a rockstar...a reeaallll quiet one.  ;)