I have gotten much better at living "in the moment" with my kids over the years. Somewhere along the way I realized that there would never come a time where every little thing in life was perfect and so I was free to enjoy them...no, every little thing will never be perfect. If I don't enjoy them now, I will miss it. I've understood that for many years now about my kids, but just recently, maybe even just today, I realized that my relationship with God is the exact same way.
He is with me in the moment. His "job", if you will, is not to make sure that everything in my life is amazing and wonderful and never difficult (just as that is not my job with my kids), it is to be with me every moment. YES, He will help me and guide me and direct me and take care of me, and certainly His ability to do all of those things is infinitely greater than my ability to do it with my own kids, but His greatest promise is to always be there.
I have so much comfort from that thought today.
Whatever is waiting for me tomorrow, God already knows and He's already in my tomorrow making a way where there seems to be no way. Making crooked places straight. Making paths in the wilderness and streams in the desert. The paths and streams and answers He is busy working out may not be the way I want or when I want or look pretty on the outside, but they are there without fail.
I suppose I have sometimes feared that I am close to the end of using up the available grace. That perhaps I have needed help just one time too often. But today the gentle voice whispers in my spirit, "I am more than enough. Always. My grace is sufficient for you. Forever."
I may not know what the future holds, but I know who holds the future. And He is more than enough.